You tell me not to be a victim
Then stab my soul and walk away
Well I'm wailing and I'm crying
Cuz the louder I scream
The more the pain goes away

You'd love me to be invisible
Disposable, secret, stiff upper lip
But baby you got yourself a live one now
And I hope it makes you lose your grip
Don't ask me how I am
If you don't want to know
I'm falling and I won't come back
This one got me pushed offa the edge
This was the final whack

Did you push or did I jump?
You want to examine the evidence
Drive down obfuscation highway
I'm the one falling, flying, soaring free
No time for white male mental masturbation

You tell me not to be a victim
Walk away and start again
Empty-handed
Keep it quiet `cuz we women are so
liberated now
We can take the blame as well as the abuse

You told me I was not your victim
And then acted like you were mine
`Cuz I scream and shout
And I call you out
You can't hide from my
Scolding tongue
I'm no victim here, I'm just a woman scorned
And used and dumped and sick and poor
But I refuse to shut up
And say you're okay
And that you don't owe me nothing anyway

I love to misbehave towards you
We used to be so naughty together
Now I'm on my own, you
Won't answer the phone
What do I do with my leftover depravity?
I'm going to unshackle it
And I send it your way
Just pretend that you don't see me
As you lead your parade
All the pain you've made
Follows you like a troop of corpses

all your good deeds in the world are useless
if you treat your lovers like they're worthless

at least the jerks in the LDS
have the cojones to say
they feel perfectly entitled
to treat women this way
give me an honest bigot any day
over some poser hippie boy cliche

Come on out and brawl like a real live man
Not a stuttering upper-class automaton
Stand up and tell me what I say is wrong
You used me and disposed me and I'm crying now
You're gone and you still make me holler out loud
When no one notices, I am emancipated, like
The homeless men on the corner
Who cares how they smell, what they wear, what they say?
Invisibility liberates us to disobey

Just pretend that you don't see me
That this song ain't stuck inside your brain
`cuz you might agree with me, and that's wrong you see
because I openly admit that I'm not completely sane
BOO!

you tell me not to be a victim
but my crying sets me free
ran out of cheeks to turn
and the lesson I learned
is if I yowl, howl, the pain goes away

you tell me I just want attention
wouldn't you for a broken leg?
Broken trust is no less pain
Like a twist in my brain
And yeah, for attention I beg beg beg

I tell you I am not a victim
And you can't use that to shut me up
I will be visible, inviolable,
Howling at the moon
Unfettered, too old and tired to keep myself
In a cage
I am not recyclable
Disposable
I'm way beyond redeemable
I'm gonna talk about my pain

this is how I heal

I tell you I am not your victim
I'm standing up for myself
Fighting for my life
So sorry you think it's harassment
That I ask to be treated like a human being

Well I'm wailing and I'm crying
Cuz the louder I scream
The more the pain goes away


--Ruby